Yesterday I sent the initial draft of Prayer of the Handmaiden off to my publisher for review. Fingers crossed that they like it! I actually felt a weird rush in hitting that “send” button… Like a jolt of adrenaline that leaves you shaky and trying to laugh and cry at the same time. This book has been a long, long journey for me. And probably an even longer wait for the folks being so very patient to read it!
I think my favorite parts of this book (besides the angst and romance, ’cause you all know how much I hearts me some angst) are the moments when the Goddess gets to explain Herself to Kade. As it turns out, just like with so many organized religions, it’s human beings that end up corrupting, twisting or just plain misunderstanding the basis for their faith. And it was so cool to get to let the Goddess speak for herself and set a few things straight. I’ve always imagined that if the gods of our modern day religions could do that, they’d have an awful lot to say about the things that have been said and done in their names.
I feel like this story is more of an outright adventure than Sword of the Guardian, and a more mature romance as well. I was a little surprised at how it turned into something of a love triangle, with Kade torn between her genuine feelings for both Erinda and the Goddess. I was also a little surprised by the way her relationship with the Goddess manifests itself. Sometimes it really is like the story is writing itself and I don’t have much control over what’s going to happen next…!
Kade and Erinda have become like dear friends to me over the past few years. Moving on from them feels a little sad, even though I know it’s necessary in order to get to the next part of the tale. And I have felt a restless creative energy today that’s almost frustrating, because it’s all over the place and I can’t quite get it focused enough to turn it into something productive. Part of me wants to jump right in to the third Ithyria book. I know who the main characters are, and several of the major events of their story. I also know that the majority of it will take place in the Outlands, giving the chance to really explore the Outlander people and their culture. I haven’t even written the first scene yet, and the Outlanders have already started to surprise me with the direction they’re going. This is going to be an interesting ride, to say the least.
But like I said, it’s sort of all over the map right now and hard to pin down. I do think some of it is the nervous momentum that comes with that odd feeling of “OMG I actually wrote a whole book all the way to the end.” Though I’ve done it a few times now, it never ceases to stun me a little when that last sentence is finished. The giddiness wants to propel me right into the next project so I can get to that last-sentence part again. :p I’ll take the momentum wherever I can get it…